Hello all!

So, it's been a while since I've asked for help finding a story, but this time, I really do need your help. Because I don't want to spoil it for anyone who hates spoilers, my search for this story is under the cut in detail.

Hope y'all can help!

( Thank You! )

Already posted this in SPNSTORYFINDERS and usually have no luck there, but forgot to mention it! Thanks guys for remindin' me! *Smacks Forehead*

Okay guys, this is a revised version of my last request more in depth detail. This time, hope y'all can help!<3

I am wondering if there are any Sam/Dean stories out there that involve Dean seeming to favor Castiel over Sam. As in, he's more concerned over Castiel's well-being and is either purposely (or not) neglecting Sam because he is still angry with him or losing faith in him. So basically, I want Dean and Sam to find thier way back to each other somehow despite all that is wrong between them for both story searches.

Some spoilers and further details under cut...

( Thanks! )

DAMN YOU KRIPKE! *SHAKES FIST*

I WARN you, this is gonna be a very descriptive perspective, lol.

I've had this idea in my head for a while now and been dyin' to share it with someone! Though it's a bit over the top, I'd like to think it's a possibility? *Shrugs*

So, I picture Sam and Dean on the battlefield, demons and hunters scattered througout, Lucifer still tryin' to convince Sammy to let him in. Dean still unsure of where Sam's loyalties lay and both boys injured and bloody. God still hasn't made an appearence, but little do we know anyway!

Then, the moment of truth. Sam DOES say "Yes" and the field goes silent, as if time stops and everything seems to be moving in slow motion from Dean's perspective as Lucifer, eyes victorious, closes the distance between he and Sam. Dean feels confused and abandoned all over 'gain and feels anger and hatred for Sam grow stronger at this betrayal. But, what he sees in Sam's eyes is not what he (Or Us Fans) expect to see. Sam's eyes are tear filled and content, at peace, and it is then Lucifer claims his vessel in blinding white light.

Dean cries out Sam's name, the demons cryin' out victoriously as the rest of Dean's remainin' allies look on in despair. When the light finally fades, Sam is on his knees, head loward and blood tickling past his lips. Confused, Dean looks down at the drippin' blood as it lands to the ground and it is then he sees it:

Ruby's knife embeded in Sam's abdomen by his own hand.

Lucifer, now inside Sam's body, stares wide eyed and in shock at the sudden turn of events, not realizing until it was too late that he fell into Sam's trap. And in a flash of gold and white light, his followers cryin' out in defeat, we witness Lucifer's unexpected demise (Of coarse, this scene would come with dramatic sound effects and a trembling earth 'cause I'm sure Lucifer's death won't go out without a bang to accompany it...)and as the light fades, Sam topples over, Dean catching him just in time to hold his dyin' little brother in his arms once 'gain.

The boys share a moment, Sam slipping away in Dean's arms, words unspoken. Dean tremblin' with his tears and his sorrow, tellin' Sammy everthing he should have said, they both should have said when they had the chance.

I'm sorry. I love you. I forgive you.

Then, Sam is gone. Dean remains. This is Sam's redemption as well as Dean's.

Thier love saved us all.

Now, enter devine intervention!! YAY!

Just when we thought Sam was lost forever, a white light decends onto his broken body, healin' him inside and out. Dean watches in astonishment and when the light fades, Sam's eyes flutter open and meet Dean's own. Dean feelin' his heart overwhelm with a peace and joy he hadn't felt in years.

He lives! Whoo Hoo!

The skies open as blindin' light seeps through, decending onto the earth and consuming every evil left behind, banishin' the demons from the possesed and healin' the wounded and dead...

Okay! I'll stop here 'cause my imagination has drivin' way into overload and hopeful notions! *Takes Deep Breaths*

Huh? Ah, what the hell. Might as well start writin' a story out of this idea now that I've got the plot figured out *Grins*

Well, that's what I'm hopin' for only I KNOW Supernatural has entirly different plans for the boys...<3


Skillet-Hero

If not allowed, please let me know...

Hey guys! Hope everyone is havin' a good day and if not, well, I've got a project for anyone who'd be interested to take thier minds off any stress related issues for a while and put thier creativity to work.

If you're interested, please look under the cut and hope y'all can help a deparate fan! *Grins* Well, not THAT desperate, but would love to see how this will turn out either way<3

( Thank You! )

So, here's what I think in just a few words...

( Enter My Mind )

Is it just me, or does sound like Sam's song at this point??


Flaw-Only The Strong

Lyrics

It's time, it's time
Step on up!

What makes me think that, it'll all work out in the end?
Afraid to feel bad, better off to try and pretend
I'm immortal, immune to all that is wrong
Just keep on wishing, crossing my fingers so long
Is this helping? I'm growing weaker each day
Can't stop whining, still afraid of what I might say or reactions,
That control us one and all


It's mine, it's pure and as decent as I can make myself
Inside, we all know, only the strong survive.
Why don't you think about that?!
Why don't you think about that?

So now I'm bleeding on myself yes once again
Seems I trusted another deceitful friend
My fault, I should've known the deal
Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer for real
Seems easy, but nothing could be so hard
Trying to guess life's dealing, what's the next card?
I'm surely folding, I don't like this hand at all

It's mine, it's pure and as decent as I can make myself
Inside, we all know, only the strong survive
(Why don't you think about)

Maybe things happen for a reason and wherein lies the answer
To overcome the grieving of lifes unruly lessons
I'm handed in sucession,
It builds my pain which makes me strong

It's mine, it's pure and as decent as I can make myself
Inside, we all know, only the strong survive

When it's mine, and it's pure and, as decent as I can make myself
Inside, we all know, only the strong survive

Why don't you think about that?!
Why don't you think about that for a minute?

I hope this is where our boys will be soon...


Nothing Else Matters-Metallica

YES! So, I will be attending the SPN CON in March as a late birthday gift to me (March 6)! *Grins* Of coarse, I'm startin' to get nervous 'cause so far, Jared is the only one appearing and I'm really hopin' Jensen goes too. I want to be able to meet both the boys and it would really suck if Jen doesn't show. Don't get me wrong though! I do love and appreciate Jared, but I just spent over $500 bucks for this so I better get the whole package deal! lol.

Now, all I gotta do is workout and get into shape 'cause there is NO WAY I'm meetin' the boys looking like Jabba The Hutt! *Grins* Well, I'm being dramatic, but I just don't want to look like the Ugly Ducklin' next to them *Smirks* So wish me luck on that!

Lookin' forward to meetin' some of you peeps 'cause I will be traveling alone. I plan on hangin' out in CA for a couple of days after the CON, so you guys are welcomed to meet up with me if you plan on stayin' longer as well and we could hang out.

Important Personal Note for the Future (Just In Case):

Also, I do plan on sellin' my Golden Package Ticket ONLY if Jensen doesn't show up. Just to give y'all a heads up since the damn site I purchased it from doesn't allow refunds *Frowns* But I don't wanna give your hopes up either, so don't make any plans!

Alrighty my peeps, that's all I got for now. Hope to meet some of you guys there!<3

Title: Far From Home (Introduction)

Author: Loustat

Rating: PG (Or whatever)

Main Parings: Sam/Dean

Other Characters: Brief mentions of Ruby, Castiel, and Lucifer

Disclaimer: I do not own the boys, nor do I claim any rights to Kripke's master creation. (Damn!)

Summary: In time, we will hit that fork in the road. These times, it hard to see where our paths will lead. But what truly matters is what we feel. What our heart is whispering to us unconsciously. It is not fate we must beleive in. It's faith.

Warnings: Spoilers for Season 4. Bottom!Dean and Sam...

Post Season 4

Authors Note: So, this is how it all started for "How Do You Want To Be Remembered When Your Time Comes?" Hope you guys like and bare with me 'cause I promise it'll be worth your while<3



Fire could be seen just over the horizen, consuming everthing in its path. Everything had seemed to still, frozen in time, except for the cries in pain and terror. Dean could feel the hellfire searing his skin, a new pain he hadn't endured during his time in the pit. His eyes stung with unshed tears as he laid in a pool of blood and dirt. Whether or not it was his blood, he wasn't sure anymore. All that mattered was seeking out the very man that had started this war and then he saw him, beyond the blackened smoke and stinch of death.

Sam

Standing above all others on top of a hill spewn with the bodies of the dead. Demons and Angels alike as well as humans. His hazel depths were unreadable as he met Dean's wide greens.

"Sam!' Dean cried out, echoing throughout the field of sorrow and decay. Trying to decipher Sam's expression behind long and matted bangs.

Sam was saying something, his lips moving but no words coming from them. Blinding light suddenly surrounded him and the world tuned out into the void.

"Sam!" Dean cried, his eyes snapping open in fear and panic. He shot up in his bed, his heart beating rapidly from within his chest and not a second later, Sam was by his side, eyes filled with concern and weariness.

"Dean? You alright?" Sam whispered, sleep evident in his rough tone.

Dean shivered as the memory of his dream clinged relentlessly to his consciousness and he refused to meet Sam's eyes for fear of facing yellow orbs.

"Dean?..."

"I'm fine Sam!" Dean snapped, causing Sam to flinch and withdraw his hand from where it rested on Dean's shoulder as if it were burned.

"Wanna talk 'bout it?" Sam attempted once again, willing Dean to look at him, which Dean hasn't since Sam exacted his revenge on Lilith and unleashed Hell onto the earth.

"I said I'm fine Sam," Dean said irritably, turning away from Sam, "Now get back to sleep 'cause I'm gonna need you sharp if we're gonna fix this mess."

Sam nodded and retreated to his own poor excuse for a bed with a heavy heart.

5 months.

5 months since Lucifer's return

5 months of regret

5 months of pain

5 months of "Sam" no longer "Sammy"

5 months of unspoken anger

5 months of nightmares

5 months of unshed tears

5 months of DeanCastiel, CastielDean

The list was never ending now and Sam curled into himself, the distance between he and Dean growing with each passing day...

Hour

Minute

Second

This is what bothered Sam most. Dean never looked at Sam the same again. No longer the protective and loving big brother. The man that was wiling to fight and die for him so that Sam could live. Sam had failed Dean time and time again, proving himself useless and selfish.

Dean had Castiel now.

He knew he should be thankful that Dean still had a shoulder to lean on, but he couldn't help the jealousy he felt whenever Dean sought out the fallen angel and stays gone for hours on end without a single phone call to let Sam know he's alright. God only knows what Dean and Castiel were doing. But, Sam knew he was in no position to say anything about it. Sam knew in his heart that Dean was justified in his actions. Not after everything Sam put him through in thier long lives together. Not just for that one year.

Lilith

Ruby

Vengence

Addiction

Lies

He deserved it.

Sam felt the tears, but they never fall, not for him. A constant reminder that he was not worthy of such a human emotion. The sound of creaking in the next bed indicated Dean's departure as he stood and readied himself silently before leaving out the door, leaving Sam alone in the darkness of thier rundown motel room. Knowing Dean left to seek out the one man that could bring him comfort.

His heart stopped beating then, the pain unbearble. It's alright though...

He deserved it.

Title: How do you want to be remembered when your time comes?

Author: Loustat

Rating: PG (Or whatever)

Main Parings: Sam/Dean

Other Characters: Brief mentions of Ruby, Castiel, and Lucifer

Disclaimer: I do not own the boys, nor do I claim any rights to Kripke's master creation. (Damn!)

Summary: In time, we will hit that fork in the road. These times, it hard to see where our paths will lead. But what truly matters is what we feel. What our heart is whispering to us unconsciously. It is not fate we must beleive in. It's faith.

Warnings: Spoilers for Season 4.



Authors Note: This one-shot is actually a shorter version of a longer story I'm plannin' on writing soon as I get the chance. Please let me know what y'all think and if I should continue with this story.



P.S. Please excuse any mistakes you may come across. No Beta wad done.











( How Do You Want To Be Remembered? )

Title: Flying Coackroach+J2=WAR!...And Comedy...
Author: Loustat
Rating: PG-13 (For Language)
Main Parings: Jared/Jensen
Other Characters: Mackenzie, Harley, Sadie...
Disclaimer: I do not own the boys or their loved ones, nor do I claim any rights to Kripke's master creation. (Damn!)
Summary: Summer in Texas is so much fun...
Warning: None...unless you're weary of flying roaches.
Word Count: 1,468
Beta: None, so excuse any mistakes you may find<3
Authors Note:
So, as I was pursueing a flying cockroach last night, I thought what an interesting story this would make. And who'd better understand this situation better then Jared and Jensen being fellow Texans? I don't know anywhere else flying roaches exist other then the South. I've come across many outsiders in my line of work as an Americorp Corp Member and my peeps have told me they didn't even know Flying Roaches existed before moving to Texas. Okay, I'm rambling, I know. Just felt like writing a Feel-Good story and hope y'all enjoy and get in a few chuckles while you're at it...*Grins*

( It's On! )

I would love to get to know y'all better. Enjoy and Repost if you'd like...


I'd like to get to know a little bit more about y'all. Please do it, its cool if don't but I'll give u a cookie if u do.. ;-p

1) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
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2) What was your dream growing up?
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3) What talent do you wish you had?
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4) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
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5) Favorite vegetable?
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6) What was the last book you read?
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7) What zodiac sign are you?
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8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
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9) Worst Habit?
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10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
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11) What is your favorite sport?
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12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
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13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
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14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
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15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
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16) Do you have any pets?
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17) What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
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18) What was your first impression of me?
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19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
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20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
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21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
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22) What color eyes do you have?
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23) Ever been arrested?
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24) Bottle or can soda?
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25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
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27) What's your favorite place to hang at?
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28) Do you believe in ghosts?
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29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
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30) Do you swear a lot?
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31) Biggest pet peeve?
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32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
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33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
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35) Do you believe in God?
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36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
A. Location:

Okay my peeps, this question is for anyone who's attended any one of the SPN CON'S in the past. My sister and I want to take a small gift to Jared and Jensen (VERY SIMPLE), but don't know if that's allowed. I've seen pics of fellow J2 fans baring thier gifts to the boys, but we don't know if they have special privliges. Can you guys help me out with this question 'cause we don't want to look stupid carrying around something they boys won't be allowed to have?

Much Love and Thanks

-Lou

Title: A Long Way Home
Author: Loustat
Rating: G
Main Parings: None
Disclaimer: I do not own the boys, nor do I claim any rights to Kripke's master creation. (Damn!)
Summary: In the dim of the motel room he wrote. It has been a while since he's written anything and his brain throbbed heavily in his temple-a constant reminder that things between he and Sam are so terribly broken and wrong...
Warning: Some spoilers for the episode,"Lucifer Rising"
Authors Note: Quick Story I wrote on a whim. Hope you guys like and forgive any mistakes you may come across...

This song inspired my story. From Sam to Dean...To BOTH our boys...

Evanescence-October

( Dean's Thoughts In A Song )

Here are my quick thoughts 'bout "Lucifer Rising"

( Spoilers Here )

Hey Guys,

My twin sister just openend an account for LJ under the alias Statlou and I'm trying to show her the ropes, but I suck at it *Grins* So, to give her a warm welcome into our obsessive J2 family, feel free to ADD her in your friends page. YAY!

ALRIGHTY MY LOVELIES, I HAVE FOUND NEW HOPE.

SO, AS I WAS RESEARCHING, I DID COME ACROSS AN ANNOUCEMENT FOR SOME SPN CON TICKETS TO BE SOLD SOON IN 2010 FOR NJ AND L.A. MY SISTER AND I ARE PLANNING AN ALL OUT WINCHESTER ROADTRIP COMPLETE WITH RUNDOWN MOTELS AND PROBABLY SLEEPING IN OUR CAR *GRINS* WHENEVER WE DON'T HAVE CASH TO SPARE. YEP, WE'RE GOING ALL OUT HARDCORE IN HONOR OF OUR FAVORITE SHOW SINCE THE X-FILES.

SO, IF YOU WANT IN, WE CAN PURCHASE THE GOLDEN PACKAGE TICKETS FOR WHOM EVER WANTS TO JOIN US. ALL YOU HAVE TO WORRY 'BOUT IS PAYING FOR YOUR OWN MUNCIES, PITCH IN FOR GAS, AND HALF ON THE ROOM. I KNOW THIS SOUNDS STRANGE, BUT WE ARE TRUSTWORTHY! WE WOULD INVITE OUR OWN PEEPS, BUT MY SISTER AND I ARE LITERALLY THE ONLY TWO WHO WATCH THE SHOW AND WE'D LIKE TO TAKE SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY APPRECIATES IT.

SO, OUR ROADTRIP WILL BEGIN IN SAN ANTONIO, TX, OUR HOMETOWN, AND OFF TO EITHER L.A. OR NEW JERSEY, WHICHEVER ONE WE SNAG FIRST.

I DECIDED TO POST THIS WAY AHEAD OF TIME TO GIVE YOU GUYS A HEADS UP AND PREPARE. WHOO HOO! I'M PUMPED NOW AND CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT YEAR!

SO, IF YOU'RE INTERESTED MY PEEPS OR KNOW ANYONE THAT MAY BE INTERESTED, LET US KNOW AND I'LL PROVIDE MORE INFO IF NEEDED. WE'LL KEEP Y'ALL UPDATED WHEN WE FIND OUT MORE...

STAY TUNED!

Hello my beautiful family,

Well, right now I'm heartbroken 'cause my sister and I have been planning for years to go to our first Supernatural Convention, but unfortunately the Gold Packages seem to be no longer available which we were really hoping to have *Sniffles*

I'm gonna be straight up honest with y'all.

We're not the richest peeps in the world, so it takes us twice the time to save up...*Frowns* Can you beleive we are BORN and BRED San Antonians, but still have YET to spot JARED or JENSEN!! *Grins*

Anyway, just wondering if you guys know anyone who have purchased these tickets and are looking to sell them or have any suggestions. I'm sure you've heard this all before, but any help will be appreciated! Any tickets either for Chicago or Van will do<3

*HUGE Texas Sized Bear Hugs To All My Peeps*

Title: Enough (One Shot)
Author: Loustat
Rating: PG
Main Parings: None
Disclaimer: I do not own the boys or The Crow, nor do I claim any rights to Kripke's Or O'Barr's master creations. (Damn!)
Summary: Dean's Had Enough...
Warning: None
Word Count: n/a
Authors Note: Well, this is very simple and just popped into my head last night. I guess it's my thoughts on where this season has taken us in Sam and Dean's journey so far, and frankly, I've had enough of Sam's betrayals and Dean's doubts 'bout himself. Eh, read on and you'll get the message...I hope...*Grins*

P.S.

This is also to keep you guys occupied while I work on my other stories for the meantime.

Also, this is NOT a Dean OR Sam bashing fic...just so y'all know...




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